to be or not to be...

So, dear blog.. I don't know how it happened..but it seems that I'm in a relationship with someone..*sigh* I don't exactly remember how it all began..but suddenly, he called me and thanked me for being his significant other for a month..MONTH?? 3O DAYS??? wow..I don't even count the days..well, technically he called me his special "gf".. but I'm not really sure our feelings are mutual..I do admit, he made me feel special everyday..calling me just to say "hi" and ask about how my day was, it's a great feeling because for once, It's about me.. I don't have to get back home from my hectic day of work to listen to other people's problem..I've always been the good listener, but this time, there's actually someone who I can share my problems..I guess, in other words, he's my punching bag..hahaha..One thing that made me want to give a chance to this relationship is that he got guts. He's brave enough to look me in the eye and tell me how he feels about me.. Despite of being told NO for many times, he never quit..and so finally I said yes, but with my own terms and conditions..haha..as if he was buying a car..he couldn't tell anyone I know about us until I'm ready, no phone call unless I'm at the office ( so that my family wouldn't know ) he can't add me on Facebook, and NO DATE!! I don't do dates, not with someone I don't know..so, are we really in a relationship????!!!!! I DON'T KNOW!!! Maybe "dia" still in my heart eventhough he's a coward!!!