all f***ed up

yeah, the title sounds awful..especially in my state of being now.. but that's exactly how i feel.. i am not a nice person, i knew that since i was born, not adorable and lovable..but I always try my best to please the people I love and care.. never once did I say something hurtful and offensive.. That's why I don't really undestand why some people would just say something so hurtful and offensive to me?? It's disappointing, I just can't look at that person the same way again..our relationship can never be the same..not ever..