dear you,

i am sorry. i apologize for not being able to be by your side right now. i am sorry for not knowing what to do, or what to say to make you feel better. maybe you shouldn't feel better. i don't know. i have never not knowing what to do in these situations. it's just that you are so special to me that it hurts seeing you like this. i'm afraid if whatever i say or do to make you feel better turn out to hurt you more. i know you prefer to be alone whenever you feel down. but, i don't want you to think that i don't care about you. because i do care. it's okay to cry. it's okay to feel sad. anybody would definitely cry in your situation. she will always be in our minds and forever in our hearts, but if you can replace your sadness, your grief upon her demise, with the thought that she's in a better place, it will put your mind at ease knowing that she rest in peace. 

P/S : i am always here for you.